Heartache Blues

Getting over tough situations can be emotionally and physically draining. You just want to throw school and work aside and sit in front of a TV and drown your sorrows in ice cream and forget someone who hurt you exist, but, in reality you can't stop and wallow in your sorrows, you have to get back up, push through the hurt and climb up on top and stand tall. It's hard and can't be done easily, I know, but if you wallow in your hurt, it will become worse. Our worst enemies are ourselves. We are our hardest judges. We are our greatest bullies.

In my experiences, the hardest person to please was and is myself. Through situations my boyfriend would try and try to build me up, by telling me, "You're worth it. You're amazing. You're my light..."

Whatever he told me I was, I had a reason why I wasn't. I would end up dragging him down with me. One day, he or I told the other one that they deserve better, giving them all sorts of reasons for example, "You need someone who isn't so sensitive, who's more successful, who isn't emotionally used up..." and on and on. It became so bad that one of us hurt the other one badly emotionally, taking them months to overcome the fear of losing the other.

So, what it comes down to is, don't be so hard on yourself, everyone of us are created for a purpose, no matter how small or how big, we are all important and we are all beautiful just the way we are. Complete strangers care about others who are planning to kill themselves. I've witnessed situations where people have only just met. For an example of a similar situation I witnessed we go to a conversation with are fiction characters, Jamie and Lizzy

Jamie just met Lizzy on a virtual class during Chemistry and they had been talking when,

Lizzy out of the blue states, "life isn't worth it."

Jamie types, "Why do you feel that way?"

"My boyfriend broke up with me...He said it wasn't me but him...but then he hooks up with my best friend...Turns out they had been seeing each other behind my back...I WISH I WERE DEAD!"

"Lizzy...I can't tell you, 'I know how you feel', 'cause i haven't been though anything like that, but I can tell you, you aren't alone. You are special just the way you are, and if they don't see it they aren't worth crying over, don't beat yourself up over them either, you've been through enough without tearing yourself down by being your worst enemy, instead build yourself up, look at your best abilities. You said earlier you play the piano about as well as Beethoven. The right person will come along someday and they will treat you like the jewel you are. In the meantime...I'm hear and I want to be friends, I don't have one i'm close to."

"....I'd like that...Thank you, Jamie."

The moral is, Life is worth living you just have to keep pressing on and don't lose hope, the right people will come along. Like he did for me, I didn't have a best friend I could go to till i was fifteen, but that is a story for another time...

You're loving author,

Maria

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